我不想當成熟的人啦!

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大人跟小孩的分別是什麼?

小孩不高興不會忍耐,就會直接狂哭,或是狂任性之類的。等到我們已經被當大人了,或者說是硬被扣人大人這頂鋼盔,很抱歉,臉部表情從此就動彈不得。大人跟小孩的分別就是,明明我就想狂哭,就想任性,就不想忍耐,但我都不行,因為我是大人。

部落格沒有文章我真的很想管他去死,不更新就不更新,我只是主編不是黑臉,到時候荒廢大家看著辦。文章不會寫或寫不出來我有什麼辦法,新聞系就有教生命教育文章怎麼寫嗎?從頭到尾開會都是一起開,你不曉得的事情我就比較會知道嗎?為什麼平白被當債主,被拖稿還要受臉色和無奈語氣?這件事情我沒有在罵誰,基本上只要有新聞工作就會有這樣的問題,而且應該是每個人都有這種問題,包括我自己。But,這種事情難道還有理由解釋嗎?拜託一下,要勸別人把自己當禮物時,有覺得自己是禮物嗎?

去菲律賓的事我真的很想裝沒聽見,什麼都沒跟我說清楚,又怕我們表現爛。真的很抱歉我完全沒準備,我也不曉得在一群基督教青年裡哪裡還有我們兩個講話的餘地?country paper他們去寫嘛,oral他們決定啊,culture night也他們準備嘛,我們去幹麻?我可不可以不要去!!!我要去社烤!!!!我要我的雙十連假,我要我的週末!!!

電台也在亂搞,上課時間亂七八糟,我也想退台,我又沒有開節目,為什麼要逼我主持!為什麼沒有退台的人就要被使喚來使喚去,老師根本就沒在管,學生當家,當的是哪門子聰明家,規矩都你們訂,退選的人就一身輕,沒退的人就負重累累。奇怪我當初不是早就說要退,什麼爛制度,亂七八糟一大堆,

最爛的就是系上本身,都大四了上課還吵成這樣,我真的為我自己讀這班感到悲哀。起碼的尊重學四年還學不會,我真的覺得我讀錯系了,讀到一個連自愛都不會的幼幼班。

我真的覺得,我這人沒什麼優點,運氣好的就是我有好爸媽,有像樣的家教,除了臉色以外週遭的人哪個吃過我的虧?做我朋友的哪個跟我絕交過?就算連點頭之交都不是,看在你跟我同班或同校的份上有事我都會幫!我會烙狠話,但我不會甩頭擺爛。平常事情超多氣到膛炸都很少翻桌,為什麼我永遠都要講理?大家都不講理了我講什麼鬼道理。

我真的很後悔,我到底在幹麻?我也想學鄭宇亨,每天打球做自己喜歡的事。我的青春呢?我最喜歡的團體都四散了,晨曦變成什麼?說要招生現在招得到才有鬼咧!每個人都說喜歡這個團體,結果聚會又不來,搞什麼鬼,散團啦,我說真的。一個月一次,這是為了存在而存在的形式嗎?這樣子我們是在求人家拜託你一個月裡別忘了我們這一次嗎?再也不可能了,我的耶穌再也不可能出現在這裡,現在還有誰會一進晨曦就受到感動?還有誰會在這裡把生活裡的壓力宣洩?那些眼淚呢?都不值什麼吧!我的聖神呢?飛走了啦,氣死我了!

我覺得好累喔,每一刻都想哭
我覺得好孤單,但我誰都不想理,我不想跟任何人講話。


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A Message from Yangon Archbishop

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It is a month since the face of Myanmar has changed. Nearly 150,000 of our country men and women are no more with us. On that fateful night, the deadly cyclone Nargis changed the map of Myanmar in Yangon and Ayeyawaddy Delta. Satellite images graphically registered the 'before and after pictures', portraying a destruction of large tracts of land. What any satellite could not register was the mutilation of soul of our graceful and long suffering people.

We are a nation in mourning. 2.3 million of our people have a new name: refugees and homeless. At this very moment, when you are reading this report, thousands who survived nature's gory violence, will be lining up in some remote villages, waiting for food and aid. The dead are also waiting for a decent burial – Yes! On the top of the trees, floating in waters and in the bushes and roadside, the spirit of our people is waiting for eternal rest.

With grateful heart, I thank you all, the world, the leaders and ordinary people who rushed with great compassion. The Church as a compassionate mother reaches out to every human tragedy. You have known our pain for too long, but when nature colluded in increasing the pain, you rose as a one family. A big THANKS to you all.

Doing good is a Herculean challenge in our nation. We are a church challenged from all directions. In those affected areas, all our churches, convents, clergy houses, orphanages lie in ruins. Yet from the day one, we have been going in search of survivors, many times being the first outsiders to reach them. A dedicated team of Karuna (Caritas) staff, church personnel and volunteers have been working day and night in the most affected areas. We are saving lives, we are bringing hope. With the arrival of the Emergency Response Support Team, we feel encouraged, guided and accompanied in our endeavor to reach out. Thousands receive life-saving assistance, shelter and other basic needs.

Nature, in anguish and fury, uncovered the permanent disasters of a long suffering people. China's earthquake response exposed painful contrasts. The world needs to journey with the people of Myanmar for long time. Media's attention to human tragedy is swift - but also passing. Humanitarian response cannot follow the media. Myanmar needs longer accompaniment, a sustained attention of the world community. This report, I hope, will facilitate that long march with our people.

There could be only one message, coming out of the tragedy of Nargis: "Myanmar cannot be forgotten once again."

Charles Bo
 

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